LOVE?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bLQduUi1tW4This song has really been working on my heart lately. Listen to it if you get a chance.

I'm strong enough
I've always told myself
I never wanna need somebody else
But I've already fallen from that hill
So I'm dropping my guard,
Here's your chance at my heard and

Oh, no
My walls are gonna break
So close
It's more than I can take
I'm so tired of turning and running away
When love just isn't safe


I really have always thought I had it all together. I didn't think i needed anyone to love me, and even though i wouldn't have admitted it I didn't think I needed God to love me. Sure, I loved him and knew i needed him to save me, but i thought i could get along without his love. He wrestled with my heart for months over this. ever since i was self aware, basically. I got my love from my parents, friends, other people.. but not him. and i knew eventually he was going to have to teach me the hard way. and he did.

The only way you understand that you need love is if somehow it gets taken from you. If sometime you can't find it in someone else. I had to be broken of my habit to look for love in other people so i could find his love. He had once chance at my heart, one time when i was broken enough i let him rule me. I had thought my life had fallen apart, and basically it had. because i hadn't built it or planned it the way he wanted to. And that's how he finally found me. i was a mess. it was awful. but now i know. His love has to sustain me. It has to be my reason to breathe. because everyone else is never going to give the love i need.  he's waiting for all of us to be un distracted, completely and utterly focused on him. not him, and your boyfriend, or your best friend, or your family, or your favorite sport, or a movie star... just you. and only you. And sometimes he's going to have to break you to build you up his way.


Pray. :)
To Infinity and Beyond.