GO READ EPHESIANS 4.

Do you ever feel stalked by the things you did in the past? i do. There are some things I cant. get. away. from. and usually they're the things i regret most. which is simply lovely. ha. and every time i think of or see something that i did in the past that i regret, I always think the myself. Good grief KateLyn. never do THAT again. in fact, how bout you never do ANYTHING again. not like that'll ever happen. but i think i should start. with the whole not doing anything thing. because it seems like every thing i do ends up taking a turn for the worse. because (lets face the fact, folks) most things i do, i do for my vain ambition. Every good deed can become something horrible when we do it for the wrong reason. when our end goal isn't what it should be. I think this is why it's in the Bible. I never got this verse before, and now i do.
Isaiah 64:6a. "All of us have become like one who is unclean, and all of our righteous acts are like filthy rags." This isn't an excuse to never try to do anything righteous, this is a truth. God can't credit us with the self control to do righteous acts for righteous reasons. because we don't have it! we don't have the sense of real love necessary to put others ahead of ourselves. so, therefore, our 'good' deeds end up being useless, because we're doing them just because they're good deeds and Jesus said so. Not because it's in our hearts to please Him and love Him. (Psalms 139:1 O Lord, you have searched me and you know me.) He knows better.
Here's my advice. go read Ephesians 4:17- 5:21. (that was my cue to post a link but it was too long. now you have to go to allllllll the trouble of looking for it yourself. sad. do it anyway, cuz its really worth reading.)

Yes in fact right now I feel completely and utterly stalked by a poor decision made in my past. and regrets aren't a thing to mess around with. they hurt. I can honestly say having your heart broken doesn't feel like it's ever going to heal. EVER. maybe that's just me though. I just warn you to be careful, because there's such a better way. Now, WE can't change ourselves do righteous things and be righteous people, but I know someone who can. Just keep fighting for it. praying. reading. listening.

To Infinity and Beyond!