Matters of the heart

So I sort of promised myself i wouldn't do this whole... ramble on about personal stuff thing, but here i am anyways and my only prayer is you would learn something from my mindless scribbles. Well, maybe they aren't mindless per se, cause I've definitely put a lot of thought into this. It may just seem mindless to you. Hopefully all the rest of my posts will be a little more collected and nice :)

Maybe I should start with a list.
1. I just read this book called 'Heaven Is For Real' about this little boy who is in the hospital and meets Jesus. It's totally fascinating and has given me a lot to think about. http://heavenisforreal.com/heaven-is-for-real-book-excerpt/- you should read it.

2. Thanks to my big sister Sadie, I've been spending a lot of time on the Rebelution website, looking at the Modesty Survey page. GUYS! I really want you to read this and tell me if you agree with it. It means a lot to a girl (or maybe just me) to read that stuff on the internet, but it'll mean even more if i hear it coming from you. yeah, I know, it's a lot to ask. but I read that and immediately think.. well, they have answers all over the board. where would the guys I know fit into that? Not that that really changes anything; like they said over and over, its an issue of the heart. And it totally is. Read up. You HAVE to. http://www.therebelution.com/modestysurvey/browse

3. I have discovered that a. having amazing people to talk to, and b. texting a lot so you know how to condense what you need to say into 160 characters, really teaches you EXACTLY what your opinion is. I was texting and journaling at the same time and it turned out to be a pretty scary combination. Too much thinking time. But here's a (slightly condensed;)) version of what we came up with. Do you know why it hurts when your heart gets broken? really WHY? its because it's something you were never meant to feel. Girls, we're really emotional creatures. Scary, I know. But we give our hearts away and then when we get hurt, get cheated on, get tossed aside, get made fun of, we feel physical pain. And that's God saying 'There's a better way, kiddo! you were NEVER, EVER meant to feel like this! You were never meant to feel unwanted; because i really really want you.'

4. Just a suggestion girls. write letter to your future husband like every day. He'll keep you honest even if you don't know him yet. And if you find that just a little creepy, (you'll get used to it I promise..) give your journal a name. It's a weird thought, but it can totally keep you accountable. I do both. My husband is gonna have quite the stack of letters, and Romeo (yes my journal's name IS romeo..) is always there for me. I feel AWFUL telling him i failed at something. And guys, maybe write a letter to your future wife every once in a while. She'll totally appreciate the gesture... I would.



Well, I think that's all for now. I'm in the process of writing another story so that'll be up soon.
To infinity and beyond! <3