why you and i aren't enough.

It's been a rough week. I've gone from having exactly no time to think about anything to having four hours solid to do almost nothing but think. That's a dangerous combination for someone as... unstable as i am :P I spent a lot of my four hours reminiscing about the past year. It's half over. 2011. Good grief. 2011 has had its rough spots. The last half of February and almost all of March was a mess. Okay, basically all of this year has been a mess. But maybe that's not such a bad thing.

Corinthians 12:9 But he said to me "my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly in my weaknesses so that Christ's power may rest on me." When I think I'm strong, I'm pretty much worthless. Because I think I've got it all together. (Which I don't.) and that I don't need help. (Which I do.)

Thanks to the wonderful Steele Croswhite, I have had song lyrics stuck in my head for the past two days.
That happen to be really applicable right now.

"Break my heart,
take my dreams
they're only in the way
of whats better
than I ask,
or imagine."

Broken heart. stolen dreams. sounds awful, right? I see that and think..... Ew. I know how a little of that feels and it's awful. But there's a good side to that, too. (weird, I know right.) God works best in our brokenness. And this is something He's been trying to teach me for forever.

"Here I am,
at your feet,
in my brokenness complete."

"The offered lives,
of the weakest ones are
known to change the world."

He has to be everything you're built on, or you're going to have a rough go of it. If you built your life on someone else, something else, or a combination of the two, you're going to have to start over from the beginning. No other human being can satisfy your need to be loved and needed. Your identity has to be in nothing but the fact that you belong to Someone Else, the most important Someone. I can't be anything 'till He is my everything. I've seen people who put their identity in something else- a boyfriend they'll never feel completely loved by. A figure they have to be anorexic to keep. A beauty that's only skin deep. A personality trait that changes with time. A skill they let take over their entire existence. And it's never, ever, ever enough. You can't be follower of Christ if you don't let him be more important than anyone else. Which would you rather lose for a week- your Bible or your boyfriend?

think about it.

Peace out homeslice! To infinity and beyond!

KateLyn